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Oh god you guys I don't know I think I'm losing it 
I dont why, school is starting and I'm in a new place. I gotta talk to new people, I haven't rp'ed a whole lot lately, I'm either in an art block, or I'm just not in the mood to draw lately. I've been getting some anxiety attacks in school. Talking to people who just don't seem like they're feeling you is just terrifying to me, like I'm being huge nuisance to everyone around me. I really hate being rant-y and looking like I'm trying to fish for attention with my "boo-hoo life sucks" speeches but I gotta vent somewhere man. It's just killing me lately, if I didn't feel enough alone in school before then I sure am feeling it now. The uncertainty of not feeling accepted just burns me in the core. Like I'm that girl you aren't so sure about. And no matter how people reassure me I know that everyone has a subconcious opinion on other people, whether it be rudely honest or admirable, it can't be avoided. It's just how we think and function. It's just that unsure glance I sense makes me want to crawl in a corner and be invisible. If I could just hypnotize people into thinking they've known me a long time I would. I'm not usually like this and I'm trying damn hard not to be but its just so difficult. I don't even know if anyone knows what the hell I'm talking about but, if you just skipped all that ranting I just wanted to say I'm prooobably not gonna upload for a while, for whoever cares xP and people pleaase..do not be afraid to RP with me, I could reaaally use the inspiration right now.
I dont why, school is starting and I'm in a new place. I gotta talk to new people, I haven't rp'ed a whole lot lately, I'm either in an art block, or I'm just not in the mood to draw lately. I've been getting some anxiety attacks in school. Talking to people who just don't seem like they're feeling you is just terrifying to me, like I'm being huge nuisance to everyone around me. I really hate being rant-y and looking like I'm trying to fish for attention with my "boo-hoo life sucks" speeches but I gotta vent somewhere man. It's just killing me lately, if I didn't feel enough alone in school before then I sure am feeling it now. The uncertainty of not feeling accepted just burns me in the core. Like I'm that girl you aren't so sure about. And no matter how people reassure me I know that everyone has a subconcious opinion on other people, whether it be rudely honest or admirable, it can't be avoided. It's just how we think and function. It's just that unsure glance I sense makes me want to crawl in a corner and be invisible. If I could just hypnotize people into thinking they've known me a long time I would. I'm not usually like this and I'm trying damn hard not to be but its just so difficult. I don't even know if anyone knows what the hell I'm talking about but, if you just skipped all that ranting I just wanted to say I'm prooobably not gonna upload for a while, for whoever cares xP and people pleaase..do not be afraid to RP with me, I could reaaally use the inspiration right now. If you actually read this whole thing then damn. Good job xD I dont even know haha
So..yeah wish me luck at the new year guys 
Text meme :'D
I got too tempted, so why not ~mingplz (https://www.deviantart.com/mingplz)
Pick an OC of yours to receive the text and an OC of mine that will send it:
Send ✆ for a morning text
Send ✉ for a text that wasn’t sent
Send ☎ for a rushed text
Send ☏ for a loving text
Send ⁇ for a drunk text
Send ø for a late night text
Send ✘ for a hateful text
OC FEATURE THINGY
I wanted to get in on one of the crazes for once in my life. XD
anyway, copy/pasted rules XD
The first ten people who comment, I will feature favorite pics of your OC right here in this journal and comment why I like them. If you do comment, please be sure to do the same in your own journal and put me in the first feature slot.
honestly, i commented on so many people's memes that i cant remember whose i commented on first quq //craiz
just comment and i'll feature :heart:
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1. Kaname Chouyou
Omg this little ray of misunderstood sunshine XD where to even begin.
First of all, his colors are fabulous and will forever be the prettiest bo
HNNGFFMM
Man oh man, I haven't written a journal entry in a long time :'D
As per usual, it's probably going to consist of me ranting or something haha
Anyway, I just recently started school again! So I'm probably going to be uploading even less than I used to quq
BUT I am currently working on a thing (haha for TG of course because you know...I suck and I'm a loser. xD) and it's just taking a little while to get done :C. Also, as usual, it's a comic thing-y so those always take way too much of my time. I don't get a lot of time to draw lately because of reasons. But I feel kind of bad for not being able to upload a lot, so I just kind of wanted to r
Hiatus until further notice :(
Ugh. Okay I'mma be honest and just say that I don't have my drawing tablet right now. and trust me, I really have wanted to upload something for the past 3 weeks now. But school, family and stuff have prevented me from that a lot. I WANT TO DRAW SO DAMN BADLY but I currently can't right now.
AND IT IRRITATES ME TO NO END but to anyone who actually cares, I can't upload anything right now. OTL I feel bad for being so inactive considering I usually try to upload at least once a week, since I draw on weekends. But stuff is happening and keeping me from it so yeah.
It makes me really upset because I've been really wanting to get my commissions
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just like old times xDDD.... WHERE DO I SIT O=O? then everybody thinks it's just a ninja xDD lolaww don't be 'where do i sit' face xDD act cool when u get to school xDD.... i miss u in school QAQ......
do this this time so it will be fun ewe xDD.. it's just the first day u'll get friends someday..... and.. i hate it T.T.... just joking AwA.... xDD